Never Just an Ordinary Girl*

Friday, June 04, 2004

livejournal

new journal.....www.livejournal.com/users/heartbreakkido

Posted at Friday, June 04, 2004 by heartbreakkido

and he was a big hairy man named Maria

so i officially declare that i'm sick of school and pretty much everything about it. i get tired at pretty much the same time everyday and it would be really nice if i could just lie down and go to sleep.<3

harry potter came out today and guess who is going to seeeee it!! that's right....ME! i'm so excited because i've been waiting since like, before last summer for this and now its here and i'm going on opening night. granted, it will be crowded and the seats will probably suck...but its going to be sweet.

nothing of importance happened today. i fell asleep in the sun and still have no color.

gym was alot of fun today. me ari jamie and some boy sat in ari's car and listened to music for like, twenty minutes and then we got caught so we sat in a field and "played" frisbee and ari gave me an orange shark. jamie took pictures and it was fun. i'm going to miss ari next year. we found a clear suit bag so we cut arm and leg holes in it and ari wore it for a bit.<3

i need to find a costume for my dance recital by tomorrow, or i'm screwed. this sucks...ALOT. mike said he'd come to the recital and as much as i'm embarassed by how crappy of a dancer i've turned into...i'm really glad he's coming and he makes me happy.

chrissy and i were hyper last two periods. who knows why. i'm turning into the clapper...the end.

i'm going to search for dance costume now...and see HARRY POTTTTTTTER. <3

Posted at Friday, June 04, 2004 by heartbreakkido

Thursday, June 03, 2004

scream my name one more time

so...recap of everything since last time i wrote (as much as i can remember anyways)

i can only remember since like...last friday so we'll start there

school was pretty normal and then i was supposed to go to jamie's for a bonfire but i wasn't allowed to..who knows why. instead i went to the movies with laura danielle and chrissy. laura and danielle saw the day after tomorrow and chrissy and i saw mean girls. when we first got to the theater, we saw a random carnival in the parking lot which was sweet but it was TOTALLY expensive so we bought cotton candy and went and decided to see our movie. they whole movie plot kind of pissed me off but the movie was good and there were wicked funny parts of it. as always, chrissy and i acted like we were the only ones in the theater which would have pissed me off if i weren't me. we were loud with laughter and it was sweet. since our movie got out before laura's we walked around the mall a bit and saw a boy with green pants and he was sweet at life, although he shot chrissy down because she complimented him and he said nothing. then laura and i went back to amy's house because that was where we stayed for the weekend.

Saturday laura and i were supposed to have dance at eleven thirty but our lady never showed up so we went back to the folker house and i called mike and we went back to amy and andy's and hung out there then he went to work which was wicked sad. i remained on amy and andy's couch and watched memento (fucked up movie, but was really good) then i watched some full house and mike came baaaaack which was wicked happy because i didn't expect him to. then amy and andy went to a party so mike and i stayed and hung around and ....watched.....vegas vacation and blanket fought<3 <3

Sunday...i watched television and andy and i went shopping and made s'mores which was alot of fun as well. then we watched Texas Chainsaw Massacre which wasn't as good as i'd hoped/thought it would be. it was really...gross and not too scary. laura and amy jumped sometimes but andy and i just pretty much made fun of it. then we went to bed

Monday/Tuesday i came home and showered then went to the chrissy's which was a wicked great time. we made kickass ponchos and decorated her skirt and my shirt. it was a good time. we drank coke and watched VH1 and went and got ice cream. ummm we did more including wearing her grandma's nighties around all night and talking for three hours in the dark about random things, which always seems to happen. i love chrissy oh so much. then when we woke up (at SEVEN) i asked chrissy and her mom if they wanted to see my wad...chrissy's mom was totally into it. haha. then she gave me drugs and we went to the high school to board the bus for our trip to six flags.

six flags was alot of fun. it was mostly me chrissy mike ally and rachael but sometimes lizzy and melissa and others. we did pretty much every ride because almost no one was there. teacups might have been my favorite (me mike and chrissy went in the blue one. haha) and we almost threw up and it was a good spinning experience. also, me ally and chrissy flew! that's right...we did the skycoaster and it was effing amazing. the original plan was that ally would pull the cord because either chrissy and i would fight over who got to pull it of who had to pull it. so then we found out that the tallest person had to go in the middle so i had to pull the cord. nerverracking..i know. so we sang free fallin all the way up and then i pulled that motherfucker and away we flew. one of the best experiences of my life...a total bonding experience for the three of us. after like...a million hours of rides mike and i went on the ferris wheel and that was tons of fun then we went back to the bus because it was time to go. then ten minutes later chrissy and ally came sprinting on. haha. then the ride home it poured and we snuggled.

Wednesday was back in school which was wicked sad. i hate school so much. i was freaking tired and i don't really remember much else. um? yeah...nothin. i think i'm failing geometry and that's sad which sucks. mike brought me home and that was fun...then there was dance which the warrens brought me to because my parents had an awards ceremony and then we got ice cream. dance was a bust but i saw kyle's pretty new guitar and i love ice cream. the end.

Today was a bit of a bust. i walk into science and my like, best friend ally informs me that some girl heard i was trashing her, which i wasn't. to a girl i don't even talk to. jesus christ. first of all, if i did trash her (which i didn't) its my right to as a bitchy teenage girl to talk about whoever i want. secondly, i dont' care enough about you to talk shit about you...then there's the fact that i don't even talk to either of the stupid girls. finally...get the fuck out of my life just because you get bored and pick the girl who doesn't really talk about or to anyone outside her group of friends, point your slutty little finger and say "she's talkin shit about me" that doesn't mean i do. keep your stupid drama to yourself because i have enough of my own to deal with. motherfucker.
then the rest of my day...umm nothin. there was the chorus concert/picnic. both pretty..uneventful. i ate cake. i was supposed to go with mike but i wasn't allowed to and then amy kidnapped me and took me to manchester where we went to guitar center then target and wal mart. i got the new soco CD which ROCKS and then wal mart made me need to call my doctor, therapist (even though i don't have one) the police and DCF all at once. doctor to perscribe some drugs to make me less likely to kill someone. my therapist to talk me out of suicide and or killing everyone else around me. the police to warn them that i might do something bad and DCF because the freaking teenage parents were beating their children and it was all around bad. the end. then i saw a car i want WICKED bad and amy and i were laughing at everything and turned around twice to look at a yard full of lawn flamingos. that's the end of my day and the recap of my...life. <3

Posted at Thursday, June 03, 2004 by heartbreakkido

Monday, May 17, 2004

i won't be your scapegoat once i join the circus

so i think that was one of the best weekends of my life.

friday was fun because of me being in Scotland.

Saturday was my birthday!!!! for my super sweet present, amy got me tickets to the circus and i took mike. so amy, andy, me and mike all went to target, olive garden, and circus.
there was a large black woman that beat the hell out of me at olive garden. Linda is her name. first of all, i was minding my own business and playing with sugar packets like i always do. i was helping because i was evening things out. LInda freaking comes up behind me and smacks me twice. then she burned my head with my flaming ravioli plate and then after everyone sang happy birthday to me, she punched me. mike amy and andy are witnesses. it really happened and i lived to tell everyone about it. hah.

the circus was amazing! there is so much to talk about. first of all, i met an elephant named kelly wich is sweet because one of my wicked good friend's name is kelly. also, i got sooooo close to petting a zebra so i figure next time there is one, i'll pet it because i'll be allowed. then i saw a zonkey (which is really a zedonk but mike and i renamed them). also, i was a bit blue about not being able to pet the zebra but then mike morphed into one and that was fun. a midget hit on amy and we have pictures of it. a clown loved me/i loved him. also i got a sweet hat from my cotton candy. there was so much freaking fun!!! and also, i'm joining the circus.

also, i got to see alba which is happy because i love her and i saw walter. i met a new guy named ashley and he was lots of fun as well.<3

Sunday was lazy. i went back to amy's after dance class and hung out with mike and amy and andy. andy made cake and it was delightful. all in all, it was fun. i watched fight club and it was themost fucked up movie i have ever seen. it was the total besttttt! and matchstick men was alright.

today was another make out monday. there was more activity in that department this time but the day lacked a certain energy. oh well...chrissy and i have to plan the rest of the week!.<3

Posted at Monday, May 17, 2004 by heartbreakkido

Friday, May 14, 2004

pictures from scotland

i love natalie!!!

me n ally. we were twins! <3

kelly turbanhead. she was totally sweet today. <3

i love scotty

fantabulous MacGregor clan pyramid plus kelly. we won!

Posted at Friday, May 14, 2004 by heartbreakkido

if it's quite all right, i need you baby

so today was so freaking sweet.

first when i went to school i handed in the fucking termpaper that was going to be the death of me. then amanda hill gave me my presenst (pj's, a sweetass flamingo candle, and a balloon) and chrissy gave me my present (water gun) with sweet brown paper.

mike carried around my balloon for me because he's the best and also because the scottish highland games is a balloon free zone.

today was the scottish highland games/clan thing. woooo clan MacGregor!!! we totally won the spirit portion which is sweet because he didn't win too much of anything else. me, ally, chrissy, and melissa were totally sweet along with benny jalel and joe. we were loud and mr. campbell's favorites. most of the day we lounged about. kelly and i ran around and danced to the bagpipe players, who by the way, played happy birthday to me. <3 there was lots and lots of fun (there are pictures) and melissa and i almost won the three legged race...which we did but they took it away eventually. oh well. i still had TONS of fun (there are pics).

then moey came home and gave me presents which are fun as well. :)

TOMORROW IS THE CIRCUS!!!! a whole day with mike, amy and andy. i'm so effing excited. i'm going to get to pet a zebra and everything! =) =) you have every right to be jealous!! yaaaaay

um..other things too but not so much. happy birthday to me tomorrow! <3

Posted at Friday, May 14, 2004 by heartbreakkido

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

what a glorious feeling...i'm---happy again.

Chrissy and i need to name every day until the last day of school because it keeps us going/gives us things to look forward to. only the sexual ones have been fun, though. hah.

make out monday
tap dancing tuesday
whackamole wednesday
thrusting thursday
fucking friday
smashing circus saturday
spice girls sunday

make out monday was fun because i was insanely hyper but i was lacking mike. sad day. only fun too?

tap dancing tuesday was an utter failure because there was no tap dancing and even less fun.i don't remember good times on tap dancing tuesday.

whackamole wednesday was alright but i didn't whack a single mole...hrm. maybe there will be a redo?

thrusting thursday is tomorrow! so this should be wicked sweet, eh? ;) hehe

then...and then...as of right now, there's only THREE days left until my birthday. may 15th kids. saturday. i'm attending the circus but feel free to give presents on friday or just leave them on my doorstep =) mwah!

so mike is back from texas which is wicked fun because i got lonely...*embarassed face here*

in conclusion, tomorrow should be sweet as should the days that follow.

one page left of term paper hell waiting for me tomorrow. oh well, this will NOT ruin fun.<3

Posted at Wednesday, May 12, 2004 by heartbreakkido

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

benefit pics

it's mike's faaaace!

notorious s-h-o-e pile.

brian is so freaking sweet.

it's kyle's faaaace!

it's chrissy's faaaace!

it's my faaaace. and mike's shoulder

Posted at Tuesday, May 04, 2004 by heartbreakkido

my only sunshine*

In the dream that awakened me,
you had come and taken me
to a sea of stars.
The cat stood in the flowers two ears above.

And the ground that was under me
was holding me so wonderfully
on a bed of leaves
and you were here with me and we were free.

Everything we saw
was beautiful and strong,
and I knew we belonged.

Then the birds came and carried us
to the sky and married us on a bed of stars,
where I was always yours
and you were mine.

And in the long back eternity,
I love you so perfectly
in the words of clouds,
like a bird sings to his flowers and I was heard.

Everything I saw
was everything I'd want,
and this world had just begun to live.
Don't wake me up,
I can't wake up from this.

Everyone was forgiven;
made hopeful;
made living;
made winning,
tonight.

So, Captain, please consider me.
Let the boats deliver me.
When I close my eyes,
drive, captain, drive.
It's time.

For everything to be perfect,
for everything to stop hurting,
tonight.

Don't wake me up.<3

Posted at Tuesday, May 04, 2004 by heartbreakkido

my hearts in overdrive

hah. long time no seeeee!

florida was TOTALLY sweet and high quality time with my good buddy kyle. i heart kyle so freaking much. best friends forever. too much things to write...perhaps little smiges of things here and there.

i don't really remember anything fun or great until last weekend which was so effing sweet.<3<3

so friday i went to mary lyn's to make favors and such and we had fun because of everything that wasn't a favor. um then i came home and went with amy to look at her wedding dress with laura and alba. alba is so freaking sweet and i love her. amy looked like a princess and i'm so excited for her and she's going to be like miss havisham and wear her dress for the rest of her life. then i came home and went to the jeff braun benefit which totally rocked. pretty much everyone i love was there. andy's band rocked the hill and so didn't everything else. there was lots of grab ass going on while on the mats. i wrestled lots too. there was a human blanket snuggle fest/orgy. i danced alot and got wicked sweaty. mike and i put worms on amy and travis (saveface) yelled at us. then i danced more. and also got over my fear of snakes a bit more...actual contact, kids. mike was proud and so was chrissy. then i danced more and that pretty much concluded the benefit. then after that i went back to amy's and waited for andy and called mike then we all (me, mike, laura, amy, andy, travis, chris, scotty, and other guys) all went to Denny's and had a brilliant time. then i slept at amy's and came home and slept while being disgustingly dirty. i wanted to go to the christmas tree shop with mike but they wouldn't have let me in because my feet were dirty.

so...um. monday kinda sucked because i was whiney but i still had a bit of fun. today was okay...a bit blah ish. jalel had a zappy gadget that natalie and i got jump started from so we tricked mike and chrissy and giggled alot. <3 natalie. umm...other things then concert.

also i'm WICKED excited because my birthday is in eleven days and if all goes well mike and i are going to a red sox game and also, amy said that i can go as long as its not on my actual birthday (may 15th) because i just can't. which means she has something planned which means i'm wicked excited!!!! yaaaaay.<3

Posted at Tuesday, May 04, 2004 by heartbreakkido